My 1 Story

My1Story is proof that God has a plan for us and it is “HIS” timing and not ours. Even though I went to church as a young boy with the family, I never really could grasp the concept that Jesus, a person that lived thousands of years ago could know me or care for me. I learned at a very young age of 5 that it was much less painful on my body to lie to my parents than to tell the truth. I never felt very good about myself and lacked self esteem through most of my life. Most of my problems I blamed on my three older sisters for many years because of how they treated me and my Mother never knew what was going on behind her back. I always felt alone and that nobody really cared about me or even loved me. As typical my Father worked a lot, but there were a few times he would take me to work with him on Saturdays which became treasured moments. When I was to start High School, my parents decide to move closer to where my Father worked. This was devastating to my low self esteem, because what few friends I did I have, I lost. Starting High School in a new school, and a new environment, as we moved from a small rural community to the city, was overwhelming on me. I became angry at my folks and withdrew even more. Then my Father died suddenly when I was in my sophomore year just before Christmas.

My one dream in high school was to play field hockey at the Division 1 level. My hard work and dedication paid off when I was offered a scholarship to play at my dream school. The summer after my freshman year I came back home to train, hang out with my boyfriend, and work as a lifeguard at the community pool. That was what my life revolved around. At the end of the summer a woman who came to the pool almost every day with her family handed me a tape as she was leaving. I went home and listened to it. It was a prayer for me. She was praying for me, a person she didn’t even know, saying she saw something special in me. To be honest, at the time I thought it was a little weird, but was also touched by the words. After about a week, I did not give the tape a second thought. I went back to school, had an amazing season, a fun year, and then returned home after my sophomore year to train, hang out with my boyfriend, and work at the pool again. But God had a different plan…